Some people say that when the going gets tough, the tough get going....

what the hell is that supposed to mean to me. I think now that i'm just really selfesh and probably don't deserve what i do have. Changing is never easy and sometimes never happens at all. I know the people who fake they are, and make everything worse when they try. Things of this nature make me think.... willi end up like them?? I want it to all just be over with and i am more than ready to be out. But for now i just have to deal.

now if only i knew how.